It feels good to sit down and write to you. It’s been awhile since I last posted in April, It was during my birthday month that I found myself drained, uninspired, and wanting to crawl into one of the books I was reading. I wanted to be alone. The kind of alone where you sit with you thoughts and are able to honor them like a passing fish in a stream. Sudden, seen, and admired.
I like to think of my absence as spiritual maintenance, an image of me walking the mountain path to the temple of my Self. It was during my time away that I reexamined my relationship with my spirituality. Since moving to the city and changing jobs, I found myself disconnected to what I valued, I felt lost. I wasn’t depressed, rather frustrated with myself that I wasn’t able to find the answers I needed to heal. It turned out that I was the answer all along, I needed to do the work, I needed to be alone. There were days where I cried, got angry, and even felt nothing. It was all a journey, the deeper I went into my temple, the more alive I felt. During my “retreat” into my Self, I was able to acknowledge my shadows, strengthen my light, and discover new realms within my practice.
My journal became my safe space, my companion during my solitude. I brought it with my everywhere I went, It held my secrets, dreams, and the aspects of myself that were sacred. I was able to color and write my emotions and ideas on the page without judgement, releasing everything that was on my mind in a loving way. Throughout my day I would write. From a single word to a stream of consciousnesses, I welcomed the honesty.
I also pulled oracle cards every morning, asking my guides for their wisdom. With my daily mantra I would choose a crystal, mala, and an essential oil that aligned with that energy. It became a ritual, something that made me feel supported and listened to. Along with journaling and oracle readings, I found myself stepping onto my mat at least twice a day. I would stretch and meditate in the morning and flow in the afternoon. The variety of movement gave me another outlet to filter my emotions and thoughts through.
My healing process was a collection of daily habits, they all worked together to bring me back to my Self. Here are some more of my favorite routines:
- Morning/Afternoon podcast during my walk to work.
- Reading during breakfast and before bed.
- No social media in the morning or evening.
- Saturday & Sunday herbal bath.
- Filtering my emails to be solely inspirational and full of spiritual/self-care goodness.
- Changing my route to work, I chose to walk on more tree lined streets and near parks.
- Stretching before bed.
- Savoring every cup of tea I made.
- Taking an afternoon break at work to do a 20 min workout.
Below you will find some of the tools I used in the Temple of Self. You can use these in your own life to reawaken your passion, align your energy, and to find balance within your beautiful chaos.
Essential Oils: Clear Mind by Little Moon